My Maggarilla..

I once again should be in bed getting ready for an other day, but no instead I'm enjoying a nice cup of peppermint tea. I ran outside with my hair wet this morning and now my throat hurts. I love this time of day, where I can think without interruptions. I'm feeling like my life is just passing by and there we go heading towards an other Christmas more birthdays. My baby is turning twelve in just over a week and it is so hard to wrap my mind around it. There are days as a mom that I want to run away from everything and life becomes more than I can take, and then other days when it's all going by to fast and I want to restart everything with all that I have learned, but that's not how life works and I wouldn't be who I am now. I was talking to a girl at work who also has a 12 year old and asking if they got along well ( trying to make conversation) and then she starts describing her daughter with swear words after every two words and after 10 minutes goes" I guess not!" I really didn't know what to say. My baby has her faults like everyone else but she is truly an amazing girl full of love and compassion and weeks like this when we have so much on the go, I don't think I could survive without her.
She comes home from school today and says I'm here to help what do you want me to do? last night after I came back from my waitressing I gave the kids their allowance which was exactly what I had made that night (not a long night) and she didn't want to take it. She said I can't take your money that you worked so hard for! I am so thankful to God for her beautiful heart and hope I can be the mom and friend she will need in the years to come.

#46

Well I can't sleep tonight, I have TOO much on my mind so I sat down and came up with 46 things that were on my mind, taking lots of important space inside my head. Even now I could add an other 5 just because my brain can't stop. In a way it's good for me to get down on paper what is inside because I can actually deal with each thing properly, some things " can" be fixed quick like going to Wal-Mart tomorrow and buying the kids winter boots and underwear, and then I can be down to 45 but some things just need to be given to God so they will probably stay on my list for quite a while still, but they should be off my mind. Because they aren't for me to worry about.
Mattew 6:
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I think a lot of times that If I wasn't reminded of this I would probably need lots of therapy because I'm really good at worrying and it doesn't do nice things to me, but God is good and patient with me and I'm very thankful for his love. So now I'm off to bed to listen to the rain or is it sonw??? either way, it sounds nice.

Changing Sky!

I wonder if my neighbors think I'm weird always taking pictures of the sky :) But that was the sky at 4:00 p.m yesterday after all the dark clounds of the morning.

We're not scared...

This was the sky at 10:30 this morning, and after waiting for it to clear, and it wasn't, we decided to head out anyways. Maybe it was the smashing of the goldfish crackers between your fingers contest that the boys had. Maybe the dumping of all the Halloween candies in the basement or the dumping of all of my sewing basket? No I think it was the way the walls were slowly closing down on me and making me feel a bit crazy that made me head outside for a peaceful break. So after getting to the grocery store and having my bicycle trailer FULL of groceries with two toddlers that are getting really tired and a 4 year old that is letting me know that she is "STARVING", I realized that my two tires were completely deflated. So I quickly became that crazy women in the grocery store that was trying to keep everyone away from the bulk candies that are right by the cash!!! BRILLIANT concept isn't it?. We managed to get back on her way. So maybe it wasn't the picture perfect"peacful walK" but we still made sure to stop for picture, the park, and finally naps and a big cup of coffee to enjoy the rest of this day.


Look what my mommy found! "MY" boots, "My" Wain boots.

Sharing some love...

Just a cute picture of " the boys" even though there is 7 years between them I love to see them interact with each other, finding that Joe has snuck into bed with his big bro in the morning for a few cuddles before Jake has to go to school that's a good day for Jake it means Josef didn't wake him up with his typical " GET UP RIGHT NOW!" we have to work on his gentle side a bit more he is fully charged ALL the time ready for action tiring his mommy out big time, but bringing lots of joy and smiles to all of us.

Perfection

I love pomegranates, I think it makes me think of my childhood. My dad use to always buy a couple of theses around this time of year and it was such a big deal, so exotic to us :). Now for just a dollar you can get them in just about any grocery store and they are so so good its amazing to me how accessible it all is to us now. So while I was suppose to be getting ready for work today, I grabbed one, and you HAVE to sit down or stand still while you eat it not to get the juice all over you, so instead of spending my 45 minutes cleaning I started eating this perfect little fruit and then taking pictures for 30minute. It is so rare for me to be alone at home, there is always someone staying back and usually if everybody leaves it's only a window of an hour or less, before something else happens, and it was worth every minutes today. Time to savour, be quiet and enjoy a bit of life. So my house is still in needs of some TLC but when does it not? it's a busy crazy house full of life that I sometimes try to turn into something it is not meant to be for the time being. Enjoy your week!

Bye Bye October...

A little bit of Friday frost that actually stayed on the ground until past 9 this morning I'm ready for Winter. Today is also my beautiful mommy's B-day so as she requested here are some Pictures of the kids on Alloween except for Jake that had already disappeared with his friends dressed as a hunter.


j'aurais bien aimé être avec toi aujourd'hui je t'aime très fort gros bizous xox et Bonne fête.

Accepting Change

Well my taking it step by step new found motto is being tested. What was meant to be a nice day with my love ended up being cancelled because of well… life (he had way too much on his plate) but saying I was dumped kind of sounds good. . So here it goes 10 things to do when the day doesn’t go according to plan 1. Call your favorite girls to come to the rescue and help you plan your day so full that you don’t have to face your responsibilities at home ☺ 2. Take a nice looooong walk to your friend’s house because you have no car and you will not stay home. 3. Pick up a diet coke and pomegranate on the way at the grocery store just because you can. 4. Stop to let the unknown husky lick your son all over, and smile at the glow on his face (Joe) even though you wouldn’t let that big furry smelly thing come anywhere near you. 5. Decide to switch you original coffee plans to coffee+ the farm (just because you can). 6. enjoy a beautiful lunch at the farm and even squeeze in some shopping (when will I have enough baskets) 7. Pick up a free coffee on your way to one more store just one more mommy promises.
8. Make a bit more time to go to you’re the nursery to see all their new Christmas stuff and pick up couple new ornament for your tree (that hubby will after question you on??? Aren’t Christmas ornament suppose to be shinny not a solid chunk of wood??? ) Well I like wood + I wasn’t shopping with him ☺ ( shopping with girls does have it's perks.9. Make it back home to realize the cleaning lady never came and then realizing you are the cleaning lady. 10. Just be thankful that even though your plans changed you at least have amazing friends, a beautiful gorgeous sunny day and freedom to plan a great day with your son. there will be an other day to be out with the one I love :)

Just Us!

This morning we're enjoying the warmth of our house, the fireplace I even turned on the heat for the first time ( it's very very cold out there ) french toast, some tea and hot chocolate and I think some afternoon naps for very tired munchkins. A day with no expectations, no plans and each other to be with :) I think it's going to be a good day. Daddy is leaving tomorrow for an other 5 days so we'll enjoy the quiet moments when they come even if they seem fewer and fewer.

Taking it step by step.

Lately I'm trying to take each day as it comes or it all becomes so overwhelming to me. I've been able to find some work in the last month and it has been really good to know that it's not hurting our family time and it's helping with all the extra things that seem to always come up. I feel like the kids at the beach just going from one rock to the next, trying to find a safe dry spot to land. Do you ever wonder why we play that game taking the risk of slipping, getting wet, hurting ourselves I guess the challenge is still worth the risk. Through all of this process I have had to remember to give ALL of my uncertainties and insecurities ( their has been a lot of those) to God and it has been so wonderful to see the ways he has answered our prayers as a family and his faithfulness. Thank you for praying. The walk has been nice so far :) and I feel I have been stretched in good ways.

I've got a secret...

It still doesn't feel like fall, and no one here is complaining!!!

Daddy's day :)

Whishing my daddy a very happy Birthday!

A "not " so good hair day!

Who could resist this boy with the crazy morning hair ( is it time for a haircut you think? ) Begging for a bowl of cucumber at 8:00 in the morning with his shinny necklace really!!! He keeps me smiling.

The Routine

I love finding peace on my bed at night , when my room is clean :), specially if the sun is going down and there's a nice cool breeze. I t 's one of my favorite things to do ( probably because it doesn't happen too often) but it's so good, gives me time to think, refocus. I'm a little bit scared of the fall, scared to get back to the routine , the lunches , finding work, seeing less of everybody. I HATE change even though I know it's good for me and that is how I grow as a person I go into it kicking and screaming and resisting if I can, but the truth is that it's going to happen no matter what. Only couple more days of being home with the kids, of play, of beach , of late night with friends before it all goes back to fall routine, I'm hoping to find joy in my " routine" joy in change, an joy in growth even when it's not always fun, because I know it's good!!!

Perfect chaos!

Enjoying every minute of this month of August. This week it's Ottawa with the kids and my sister. What is better then a messy table with lots of coffee, Ricardo magazines, fruits and yogourt dip and my favorite girl!!!

Missing you so much

It's been a long couple of weeks, trying to find some peace in our lives, times like this I just want to go back to being a little girl and curl up in my mom and dad's arms for comfort, I miss you so much gros bizous

Wishing you all a good day :)

Just when you think...

Just when you think you have said I love you enough, just when you think you have kissed them more times than you can remember. Just when you think that if you squeeze them any harder you will break some bones, Just when you think you have told them so many times how much God loves them... They ask " I'm I special to God even if I have a lazy eye?" My Emma is going through a lot as our next door neighbors are moving this Sunday, she has been crying herself to sleep for the past 3 nights, asking me if we'll be able to have play dates when her friend moves to Greece?. Tonight whe talked for a long time as she sobbed over the lost of a very good friend. Then all the big discussions usually follow because she needs to know she is loved, that it's going to be o.k and that God will provide more friends. But it was so hard to see her just crying out for love when I think " isn't it obvious how much we love you and God loves you" . But no, she wanted to be told again just to feel safe, so I just held my baby and told her over and over what she wanted to hear and kissed her all over until I could see she was at peace, knowing she is special even with her lazy eye.

M is for Monday

M is for my big sister Maggy!




For the first time today Josef called his sister by her name " Maggy" otherwise called " Emma??" for the past year. Now he also calls Emma " Emma" but today all day it was " Maggy" this "Maggy" that, he was really proud of himself. Now he's not stupid because I know he knew who she was but for some unknown reason he enjoyed calling his two sisters by the same name. Until today...

My Mommy Thinks I'm Cute!!!

An amazing week-end of sunshine and heat. We've been taking advantage of the beautiful weather. The kids have enjoyed every minute of the weather outside riding bikes, playing with the hose and water guns, running around the house pretending they're pirates, eating outside, riding their bikes, having friends over. We had a great spontaneous Friday nights with friends and family eating some salmon on the grill and enjoying lemon meringue pie over the counter :) Saturday was a day of tackling the great beast " THE GARAGE" between 6 bikes, wagon, camping gear, 3 recycling bins, 2 garbage cans, golf bags, beach stuff and the list goes on it took a while, but it was fun to get things ready for the summer and feel organized. My body is also dead from biking with my great friend Angie who will bring more pain to my life :) and taking Joe out today while daddy took everyone to Awana. I feel good about the progress done before summer craziness starts but there is much more to do...

( I couldn't resist the pictures of Joe eating his yogurt even if they have nothing to do with my week-end)

Sometimes Overlooked

My Emma's love language is definitely WORDS and TOUCH and just this week she gave me this note that I barely glanced at and she said " I'll put it on the fridge for you". Couple of days after as I was just standing in my kitchen frustrated at something ( can you believe " I " get frustrated?) I saw her note and remember how excited she was to give it to me and my lack of response. I made sure that when she came back from school I told her how she had made my day! It's so easy not pay attention to the zillions of notes and drawing that I get forgetting how their hearts and souls are usually poured in the making of it.

Work in progress!

What is this you ask? Isn't it obvious? It's " A PIECE " of granola bar. When Joe was having his snack this morning I asked him, "could mommy have a piece?" Well very carefully he picks up " A PIECE" that had fallen and hands it over to me all pround of himself :) Sometimes I'm sure that's how I seem to God when he wants to spend time with me and He wants to know He's first. I pick up the leftover from the counter and hand it over to Him. Small lesson learned from my 2 year old today :) Just like Joe has much to learn about generosity and sharing I have so much to learn about some areas of my heart that I keep to myself.

M is for Monday

M is for M'gonna try to make it back to the gym today :). M is for Messy week-end house and Massive load of laundry. M is for Mommy needs a cup of coffee. M is for Missing my morning sunshine and its wonderful heat. M is for Make sure you take some time to enjoy you day!!! M is for my Myriam's last Monday morning at work :)
We miss you Lots. Plein de becs d'amour xoxo

Sorry Angie :(

The background color against my sunset was driving me NUTS, I probably tried 10 or more colors and I'm trying white for a while not that anyone really cares but me but that sunset is so gorgeous and somehow agaist that limmy green it didn't work. Maybe someday I'll figure out this whole blogger HTML :( that's what you get for a free service and then I can add features or maybe I should get typepad just so I can be cooler than Angie. Enough complaining I'm starting to sound discontent. We had one more crazy week-end. Hockey Banquet, outing with friends, first ever Dim Sum after shopping at a chineese market and getting a lesson in what some of our friends favorite foods where. Roller Skating at Skooter's Roller Palace :) what a name ( An other free hockey activity!) My baby roller bladed for the first time and made his mommy so pround. Tomorrow is a new week and I'm hoping to get started a little more rested so I'm off to bed